Finding myself again

finding myself

Sometimes I feel like I have lost some of my identity, I am no longer me but a “Mrs” or a “Mum”.  Both titles I love being but I think its important to go about finding myself too!  I think my job can also be quite isolating.  Working from home it can be tempting to stay in my pyjamas all day and not make much of an effort. I don’t have many face-to-face interactions so it doesn’t feel like it matters so much.  But I think I need to make some time for my appearance and for my interests.  I don’t want to lose the end of my thirties in a blur of blogging in my pyjamas, playdates and endless housework!

I am thinking of writing a bucket list for turning 40 just to squeeze in some adventures and excitement before the BIG 4 0 descends on me. Afternoon tea would have been on there.  Fortunately I can now tick that off as of yesterday!

The Oreo cake was heavenly.  But stuffing my face with calories isn’t much of a challenge (its more a daily occurrence!).  So it’s thinking of another 39 to add to the list that might be more thrilling. My friend suggested jumping from a plane but I don’t think I would survive!!! My heart is racing now with my feet safely on the ground just thinking about it.

Learning to master makeup

I would love to finally get the hang of make-up.  It’s something I never really wear.  I would love to gain confidence applying it and perhaps even trying false eyelashes like the ones from Eylure. I cannot get over the choice.  You can have very feminine and fluttery eye lashes or more short and defined ones. I think it would be my favoured option over using one of these on my eyelashes.  The curler looks like a weapon of torture!!! Unsurprisingly I don’t feel brave enough…

They even have brow tamer on their site, with my Noel Gallagher eyebrows that’s good to know! My best friends wear make up and just seem to be a dab hand at getting it right, from my experience I usually just end of jabbing myself in the eye trying to use eyeliner or applying it so thick and a bit wonky it looks so bad I have to try and scrub if off before meeting them!

Freeing up some time so I can look at tutorials is the only chance I will have of ticking that off my list in time. I guess I was never a girly girl.  More of a tomboy favouring climbing trees with my brother.  Whilst the girls in school moved on to makeup and bras, I was quite happy in a vest top with my face scrubbed clean. But as the laughter lines are becoming a bit more noticeable I would rather draw attention to other parts of me.  I guess pretty fluttering eyelashes would be lovely to have!  With enough practice I am sure I would get the hang of it and then it might give me the courage to complete another one on the list – try facebook live for my blog!

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